The beginning of March brought on a slew of emotions and physical feelings that I didn’t know quite how to handle. I was exercising and eating well but I still felt exhausted and emotionally unstable. There was a lot of self-talk going on in my head with lots of conflicting thoughts.
Anyhow, to sum it up, I decided to put the professional stuff on hold and just focus on my emotional and physical health for the time being.
When I saw my social worker, she reminded me that I needed to give myself permission to feel what I feel and not fight with my feelings.
I went to see a naturopath for my overall health and she made some very insightful comments about my life — that I’ve had a long and stressful journey for the past two to three years and with the down-time, my body was saying, “I’m done.” Over the last few years after the traumatic entrance of Evan into this world, my adrenals were essentially out of commission and I was only getting through the days on caffeine and sugar. So it’s no wonder that I felt depleted and easily irritable when I cut out processed sugars and lattes. She also recommended that I check out Brene Brown and The Gifts of Imperfection to help with emotional well-being which then prompted me to enrol in Brene’s eCourse that just started on Wednesday. Here’s two “creative” assignments from this week:
As part of the journal we’re making, this is the self portrait I drew today in record time without worrying about boo-boos.
Poster that I’ve decided to hang in my bedroom which can been seen everyday to remind me that I am a creative person.
I also had a consultation with a holistic nutritionalist and am learning lots about what foods to eat and what not to eat to help with some physical ailments. She’s also an avid yoga practitioner and recommended that I pick up the book The Woman’s Yoga Book: Asana and Pranayama for All Phases of the Menstrual Cycle which I’m starting to read.
On the topic of food, I’m eating a diet that resembles the Paleo diet right now. It was inspired by the combination of Evan’s ketogenic diet, then the book Grain Brain and then just a bit of trial-and-error. I’m not following the Paleo diet strictly, but for the most part I’m diary free and grain free and it feels wonderful! Combined with the regular exercise I’m doing, I’m down to 140 lbs now and wearing size 6 to 8! Woot!
I bought the cookbook Nom Nom Paleo as way to explore my inner-chef. I think there has been aspects of life that I’ve suppressed due to how I thought I should live life and now that I have the luxury to take the time off, I’m slowing digging through deep thoughts and re-evaluating everything.
Thanks for reading my rambles and welcome to my new journey as I turn 30 in a few months.
